Kate Winslet is opening up about her eating disorder after she faced “bullying” in the media following her meteoric rise to fame after Titanic.

In a conversation with Harper’s Bazaar U.K. ahead of the release of her upcoming film Lee, the Oscar-winning actress reflected on the way tabloid criticism early in her career wore her down, so much so that she developed an eating disorder.

“There was a lot of bullying of me that went on in the media, and that did get to me,” she told the publication. “Look at all those years in my twenties when I was all sorts of different shapes and sizes.”

Instead of letting it bring her down at the time, she pushed back, calling out a men’s publication for slimming her down on the cover and speaking out against body shaming.

“I do feel a huge sense of relief that women are so much more accepting of themselves and refusing to be judged,” Winslet said of the way things are today. “Because I don’t know a single contemporary of mine who grew up seeing her mother looking in the mirror and saying: ‘I look nice!’ My mother never did. It was always, ‘Oh God, I don’t think I can wear this, do I look hippy, does my bum look big?’ We waste so much time being down on ourselves, and I’m just not doing it ever again.”

She’s cognizant of her body and strives to show it off, even if it’s not what those around her suggest. The Mare of Easttown Emmy nominee explained that while filming a scene in Lee in which her title character is sitting on a bench in a bikini, one of the crewmembers approached her and suggested she sit up straighter.

“So you can’t see my belly rolls? Not on your life! It was deliberate,” she said, adding that she doesn’t mind looking less than perfect onscreen. “The opposite. I take pride in it because it is my life on my face, and that matters. It wouldn’t occur to me to cover that up.”

Winslet revealed in March that she had an eating disorder early on in her career and never told anyone because people always complimented her about looking good in relation to her weight. Now, she said she doesn’t allow anyone to speak about her weight, in good or bad terms.

The month before, she also got candid about the pressure she felt to look a certain way or be a certain thing. “Because media intrusion was so significant at that time,” she said, “my life was quite unpleasant.”